Sunday, December 14, 2014


While experiencing a hearty mess of mixed emotions, I took on the task of putting up the Christmas tree in my ancestral home this evening. There was a good level of comfort felt as I assembled the tree and strung the lights. If my memory is correct, tonight was the first time I've ever put up a tree by myself.

Along with the good feelings I gained from taking on the tree, there's an understandable level of sadness in celebrating this Christmas without my family (this is only the 2nd Christmas since my brother's passing). Still, I feel a keen responsibility to continue traditions that brought my deceased family together in good years and bad.

So I'm now pondering whether 2014 falls under the good category or the bad. In the current moment, things aren't at their jolliest; my Crohn's disease is active, so in terms of my health every day is a challenge. These health struggles have led to a resurgence in depression and anxiety. It's pretty damn painful lately in my head, heart, and gut. In the coming weeks I've got about half a dozen tests (blood, stool, urine, colon, etc) that will hopefully point to what direction we should take with my treatment.

The good news (there's always a silver lining, I reckon) is that I've got my husband beside me on this journey. I know that this can't be easy for him, but it's part of his job, right? We support each other in sickness and health. We've also got our companion rabbit Austin, who has been a true-blue buddy to me over the past few months. He's a clever, mischievous little guy who makes me laugh just about every day.

So as 2014 draws to a close, the opportunities of a new year approach. Despite all the bullshit that's currently weighing me down, I'm optimistic that things can be better. Heartache is a part of life, but it doesn't need to be the compass I use to navigate each day.

Happy Holidays to all of my readers. I wish you all health, happiness, and hope. Let's rock 2015.

Peace -

Friday, December 12, 2014

Top 10 fave Christmas LPS

  • The Partridge Family • Christmas Card
  • Andy Williams • Christmas Album
  • The Carpenters • Christmas Portrait 
  • Barry Manilow • Because It's Christmas 
  • Paul Revere & The Raiders • A Christmas Present...And Past
  • Herb Alpert & The Tijuana Brass • Christmas Album
  • The Sinatra Family • Wish You A Merry Christmas
  • Vince Guaraldi Trio • A Charlie Brown Christmas
  • The Osmonds • Christmas Album
  • The Living Sisters • Harmony is Real
Honorable mentions to the following, which are not available on vinyl:
  • Ringo Starr • I Wanna Be Santa Claus
  • Wilson Phillips • Christmas in Harmony

Wednesday, December 03, 2014

Crohn's & Colitis Awareness Week

So December 1-7 is IBD Awareness week, and this morning I woke up being keenly aware of my Crohn's Disease.  On days like today, instinct tells me "you ain't going nowheres."  My action plan is to hydrate myself and rest.